melimpah lalu pecah

HAHAHAHAHA a good choices of words to describe my condition right now...everything goes INTO my stomach today...its been a very busy day in there ;))

I enjoy eating on my holiiiiiday. So does my fats....now they meet world!








p/s: masih belum mengupdate gambar di sini ya!

jangan dicium mulut yang tajam

nanti terluka bukan di muncung...tapi di hati..LOL LOL(note dat double LOL)

Alkisah 1/3 manusia di dunia, bermulut tajam... tajam dari pisau paling tajam (tajam pisau kalau potong batu tumpul juga...)

Saya lihat di merata-rata sekumpulan manusia bercerita komfem kemudian ada ja yang terluka, bukan gara-gara bercakar... tapi oleh cerita-cerita mereka juga...oh sy bukan sempurna, jauh dari malaikat tak juga la dekat si syait**n...sy ckap pun jarang mau pandang2, jarang mau dengar2, jrg mau fikir2 dlu, dihentam melulu ja...habis, memang ragam kita, kalau bukan diri yang sakit takda la bersusah mau fikir pasal yang lain.

Tapi logik fikiran sy, maka wajarlah kita mula bercakap sambil pandang2, sambil dengar2, sambil fikir2, bukan mau kontrol idea di minda, sekadar mau jaga hati manusia...kalau sy tidak la banyak mau dijaga...yang tersayang di sekeliling ja (maklumlah sy tak banyak kawan: penyendiri tegar). Mulai bermulai saat genting disaat menulis, maka timbul juga sedikit kesedaran diminda sy yang mulai beku oleh cuti universiti ini...semoga kesedaran yang sedikit di hati, jiwa, minda sy menjadi bukit di kemudian hari sebelum banyak yang berdarah oleh kerana mulut...semogalah..




p/s:renung-renungkan dan selamat mencuba bersama saya jika anda membaca

14 days detox

I've been making few changes in my routine lately. I failed my diet program for sure, holiday is so tempting...

I've been neglecting my facebook for few days already, just to unwind... it helps a lot though, i slept a little early, spend times with the family, long phone calls with MHBD(we fight less), i cook more!, my headache were gone, and all those are more then needed to make me happy.

Something changing here. Really. positive changes of course. I'm less moody (or maybe it's just not the time yet)

And lastly, flipping back at my older post i realised that I'm lacked of photos and my background make it a lot difficult to read ( who's reading anyway kan?) so, I'm thinking of doing a photo blogging... will that be fair? "punch your chest,ask what you want to eat" LOL

third day of december

alaa malas mau update.sorry ;-))

just so

I'm in a very bad condition...dealing with my moods. Maybe its just me, maybe its the surrounding. I pissed off easily. Not attracted to any jokes recently. Take things too seriously. Lost respect. Its just something I can't control and I have to seal with it badly. Depression is bad. oowweeuuhh am i depressed?

Today i'm just plain tired...tired of doing the chores, tired of waiting, tired of battling with eating habit,,just that tired..


I hope tomorrow 'll be a better day ;))

lack of ...

I've decided to create a dull blog...just because

HELLO WORLD!

Haven't been been blogging for the past few months i think...been busy and lazy lately, and of course i'm one less dedicated...but well yeah i'll try to type as much as i can in each entry...btw, i'm on holiday and my weight loss plan starts again... i really have to shape up for the Christmas. There's no special occasion, just so.

For the time being i'm not planing to jog or do my exercise...just not in the mood and condition to sweat yet. I'll start with no rice with substitute with oat or crackers..But yes i've to wait for my mom first..to buy those.

hard as a stone

hardship,
heartbreak,
boredom,
tiredness,
are just a matter of words.
with or without anyone i am dealing with it ALONE.
and none will bring me down.

over burden pressure

am having my match tomorrow.bersukan bha now.sikit-sikit.having fun with my girlfriends even six tests awaiting for us this monday..you go gal!LOL..my hp making me troublehe AGAIN..and bla bla bla...just a short feeding here..nothing much to write.




things with MHBD is not that assuring though..I MISS HIM.badly ;-((

i'm fine

we've been fighting this few days.hate it.but we think we're too good to alter our own ego.

peeps

I accidentally google this...PEEPS.It's some kind of marshmallow.hehehehe super cute!you shoud google it too.

wonderwoman

been very busy this few weeks.Tests and test and test, out numbered of reports, and will last until the end of the next two month november. hard, tiring, but just trying to follow the flow. Let everything leads to everything.

ah btw found something interesting.

Jgn xtau.....laptop pun ada jantina...

so, nak tahu tak jantina laptop yg selalu dingadap tiap2 hari tu? jantan ke betina....hehehehehe

buat je step kt bwh ni...

1. Buka notepad dan paste ayat ini dalam notepad:CreateObject("SAPI.SpVoice").Speak"I love YOU"

2. Selepas itu tekan save. Ubah save as type kepada All Files (pastikan korang save di desktop supaya senang nak cari/buka nanti).

Save as = love u.vbs

3. Close notepad apabila habis save. Then double click file td (love u.vbs) dan akan dengar suara "i love u."

Cuba dengar btul2 suara "i love u" tu....suara lelaki ke perempuan?

Kalau dengar lelaki maknanya laptop korang tu jantan dan begitu le sebaliknya....



back to reality

Am back!It's time to restart my blahblah day after a refreshing holiday..i aim to whine less,complain less and spending less this time..final exams is a month away and i really have to cover up..

May this few weeks till the end of the semester full with blessing and positive spirit..CEWAH!

I WANT!

1.) I want slender leg!
2.) I want slim tummy!
3.) I want tight butt!
4.) I want fit arms!
5.) I want to be pretty!

food

It's been few weeks since I let go my diet program and I've been eating MUCH..heheehe i'm going to be FAT..(Should I care???)

Btw,I'm home now..so it's my excuse for being a pig..ahahahaaa..

JEEP

I know nothing about cars...but this one sure get me attracted...I introduce, my new passion JEEP(or is it a brand??I don't know)I want it RED, I want it TOUGH, I want t badly..buy me ! puhhlissssszz(mimpi la kau..)naaaaahh I'll have 1 one day!

blahblah

went for ivy's wedding for the weekend.malas mau up pic..owwwhh besides, I left my camera punya charger somewhere in ivan's room..aduhaiiii i so careles..please help me with that.

ayaiyaiyai

going out sekejap with myHBD just now.craving for sushi.thanks love!but sadly he'd his sore throat(I think la..i'm very bad with diagnosis,it's just not my field) well you,GET WELL SOON!! I hate it when you don't talk much.weird

owwwwhhyahhh and i bought BB cream..wish me luck on wearing it tomorrow LOL





xoxox

i loiiiikeee!

Talk to MyHBD(my handsome boy darling) before went to bed. He's complaining because there's isn't any post about him..hihihi..sowie..I've been mad this few days due to the lack of attention ( because of my test and his tournament and sorts) . Well yes,but we'd settled it..sorry Love this post won't be long too. I've class tomorrow..we both have..anyway I miss you and can't wait for this Friday..or earlier maybe,to buy stuff...

p/s:cannot upload photos of us together...internet sloww gilerrrr

at my lowest

You don't care anymore. I hate it!

i need you

I miss them..every one of them, every single words, time spend. Everything..life's basically isn't about anything else, but to care, love and appreciate every thing and every one.

Those people are the "every one" I care most. My family la of course. Friends come and goes, enemies stabbed your back, public judges your every moves, problems hugging your way, and time and stresses kills. But no matter how families stand still, grabs you when you fall, covers when you're bare, push when it's hard and saves when you're about to die,everything they do,they did it for you..

Strive hard but earn a little

means a hard work that does not paid-off pffttt...how much extra effort should I put into? It's just that disappointing.

LOTS OF BOOKS AND PRAYER!!

WEEKS OF QUIZZES AND TEST! wish me the best :))

I'm BLOOD TYPE A

What Makes a 'Type A' an Individual?

What makes Me Me and You You?

This is the question that is at the heart of the genetic puzzle. It is also central to our exploration of blood types. The key is genetic heritage - the story line of your life. Even though you are living in the 21st century, you share a common bond with your ancestors. The genetic information that resulted in their particular characteristics has been passed on to you.

People who are A blood type have a different set of characteristics than people who are Type O - they are susceptible to different diseases, they should eat different foods and exercise in a completely different manner. Some believe that personality is influenced by blood type! Dr. D'Adamo, author of the best selling books Eat Right for Your Type and Live Right for Your Type, among others, gives us a blueprint for living in his books. Read on to learn more about the Type A individual.

Type A History

The Type A emerges into the 21st century with many more complex challenges than their ancestors could have imagined. The key factor in the development of Type A can be traced to the struggle for survival long ago, when there was a rapidly dwindling supply of hunting game stock. Having exhausted the great game herds of Africa, humans pushed farther out from their ancestral home into Europe and Asia. The cultivation of grains and livestock changed everything. For the first time, people were able to forego the hand to mouth lifestyle of the hunter/gatherer and establish stable communities. Over time the adaptations that produced Blood Type A were based on the need to fully utilize nutrients from carbohydrate sources. These biological adaptations can still be observed today in Type A's digestive structure. Low levels of hydrochloric acid in the stomach and high intestinal disaccharide digestive enzyme levels permit the more efficient digestion of carbohydrates. According to Dr. D'Adamo, these are also the very factors, along with low levels of intestinal alkaline phosphatase, that make it difficult for Type As to digest and metabolize animal protein and fat.

What Makes Type A Unique

Many neurochemical factors in the Type A genetic disposition favor a structured, rhythmic, harmonious life, surrounded by a positive, supportive community. The harried pace and increased sense of isolation experienced by so many in today's society often make these needs difficult to achieve. Type A best exemplifies the powerful interconnections between mind and body. This was vital to the shift away from hunting and procurement to building and growing. However, Type A's more internalized relationship to stress, which served your ancestors well, can be a challenge for the modern Type A. The Blood Type Diet's proactive mix of lifestyle strategies, hormonal equalizers, gentle exercise and specialized dietary guidelines will maximize your overall health; decrease your natural risk factors for cancer, diabetes and cardiovascular disease. The result: high performance, mental clarity, greater vitality and increased longevity.

Type A Diet

"When we discuss 'diet,' we are not talking necessarily about a weight loss plan, that's a side benefit to following this plan. We are actually discussing diet in the more traditional sense, meaning a way to eat," explains, Dr. D'Adamo. Type As flourish on a vegetarian diet - if you are accustomed to eating meat, you will lose weight and have more energy once you eliminate the toxic foods from your diet. Many people find it difficult to move away from the typical meat and potato fare to soy proteins, grains and vegetables. But it is particularly important for sensitive Type As to eat their foods in as natural a state as possible: pure, fresh and organic. "I can't emphasize enough how this critical dietary adjustment can be to the sensitive immune system of Type A. With this diet you can supercharge your immune system and potentially short circuit the development of life threatening diseases."

Handling Stress

In this busy, ever changing world, it's almost impossible to avoid every day stress. Type As have a naturally high level of the stress hormone cortisol and produce more in response to stressful situations. Cortisol is released in 24-hour patterns, typically in the early morning between six and eight A.M. with a gradual decrease during the day. It helps to cue the body's other cyclical rhythms. Due to the naturally elevated cortisol in type As, additional stress often manifests in several ways; disrupted sleep patterns, daytime brain fog, increased blood viscosity (thickening), and promotes muscle loss and fat gain. In extreme cases in Type As, stress can manifest in more serious ways, causing obsessive-compulsive disorder, insulin resistance and hypothyroidism. To help balance cortisol levels, Dr. D'Adamo recommends that you limit sugar, caffeine and alcohol. Don't skip meals, especially breakfast; eating smaller, more frequent meals will also help to stabilize blood sugar levels. He also points out that the following factors are known to increase cortisol levels and increase mental exhaustion for Type As - be aware and limit your exposure when possible:

• Crowds of people
• Loud noise
• Negative emotions
• Smoking
• Strong smells or perfumes
• Too much sugar and starch
• Overwork
• Violent TV and movies
• Lack of sleep
• Extreme weather conditions (hot or cold)

Calming Exercise - The Critical Component for Health and Well Being

Heightened cortisol levels make it harder for Type As to recover from stress. Research has demonstrated that overall cortisol levels can be lowered through a regular program of exercises that provide focus and calming effects. Make these activities a regular - and life saving - part of your lifestyle. Dr. D'Adamo recommends, Hatha Yoga, Tai Chi and Meditation and Deep Breathing Exercises. Meditation has been studied for its effects on stress hormones. It was found that after meditation, serum cortisol levels were significantly reduced. Writes Dr. D'Adamo, "While it's fine for Type As to participate in more intense physical activity when healthy and in good condition, be aware that these forms of exercise do not act as safety valves for stress in your blood type. I have seen Type As excel at weight lifting and aerobic activities, but you have to be careful about not overtraining, as that will actually raise cortisol levels."

The Personality Connection

Blood Type is a marker of individuality - and perhaps of personality as well. In Japan, it has long been believed that Blood Type is an indicator of personality - in fact, you are likely to be asked your blood type in a job interview or while out on a date with a potential mate! In a study conducted by Dr. D'Adamo in 1999, he found some interesting connections between blood type and personality. Type As most often described themselves in ways related to the following characteristics: sensitive to the needs of others, good listeners, detail oriented, analytical, creative and inventive.

Live Right!

In addition to exercise, stress management and eating the right foods, here are some key lifestyle strategies for Type A individuals.

• Cultivate creativity and expression in your life
• Establish a consistent daily schedule
• Go to bed no later than 11:00 PM and sleep for eight hours or more. Don't linger in bed, as soon as you get up, get going!
• Take at least two breaks of twenty minutes each during the work day. Stretch, take a walk, do deep breathing exercises or meditate.
• Don't skip meals
• Eat more protein at the start of the day, less at the end
• Don't eat when you are anxious
• Eat smaller, more frequent meals.
• Engage in thirty to forty five minutes of calming exercise at least three times a week.
• Plan regular screening for heart disease and cancer prevention.
• Always chew food thoroughly to enhance digestion. Low stomach acid makes digestion more difficult. now i understand!!!
  

muscle pain

my muscles are aching due to "over sitting" on my so not comfortable chair, where i spend most of my forceful night on this few days...I swear i never studied this hard EVEN during my previous finals (it's just not me) AND this is just a quiz... Hope this hours of sitting paid off..but seriously, it's amazing to know how much I fear FLUID....please be kind.

Monday is too soon

Spending everyday of my weekends on the bed because of the heavy rain. The next 2-3 weeks will be sure tough with lots of test and quizzes. Aiming high to score wouldn't help much with this level of laziness..nothing's as simple as we'd wish.WORK HARD!

To forgive and to forget

Asking for forgiveness is the act of repentant. Forgiving is the act of mercy. Most of us often said they’ll easily forgive but not forget. Is that considered as the act of mercy and what you should get back in return for the matter of your repentance?

Sometimes I believe it’s what reality is to forge but never forget, and sometime brings back the hate, detest, and the guilt back. It’s just who we are.

Spending time thinking about the act of forgiveness seems to give me a new idea of what being forgiving and forgiveness is. Whereby it does not come when someone is asking for your forgiveness but from the moment they made mistake.

True forgiveness comes from God. The God the Almighty. Creator of heaven and earth. Who’s forgiving all your sins and hears all your prayer. Making mistakes means we’re battling against ourselves. Doing things that we’re not supposed to do, and by repenting we overcome this.

Back to the real matter, what if God forgives us, but never forget what we’ve done? Will we get true forgiveness from God? If so, should we continue to forgive others without forgetting what they’ve done to us?? Fair enough isn’t it?

Insecurities

I am pretty confidence with the way I hold myself up. In certain situation I did well! Despite all those, I am very insecure until to certain point its unbearable ( I need help!) LOL. Here’s my head to toe lists;
1. My hair never will be any longer even when I’m using the most expensive hair care in salon.
2. My skin’s getting darker by days. (It’s not tanned okay, its dark. black dark!)
3. Nose and etcetera...no comment. It’s a give, and I have nothing against the Higher power.
4. Okay now comes the worst part of this, my neck to the body part. urghhh..fat fat fat. Yes it’s my fault i didn’t do my work out. But I’m too good in making excuses for myself.
5. I have boobies...(means small boobs!) body fat, everywhere around my belly. Hahahaha
6. Owwhh hard to mention my flabby arms.
7. Then there goes my flabby thigh. Or should I describe it as unattractive??
8. Short legs..very unsuitable for my body...
Ahhh..it’s always felt so good after mourning about ourselves...but somehow I feel very bad doing so. For me complaining mean ungrateful. ceywahh

certain things

Certain thing that I miss

Certain thing that I can’t live without

Certain thing that I’m holding too

Certain thing that keeps me down

Certain thing that I stay put

Certain thing that makes me shines

All does certain uncertainties...

We failed to describe,

Sometime don’t even bother to,

Are the most CERTAIN thing.

The Moods of a Woman...

An angel of truth and a dream of fiction,
A woman is a bundle of contradiction.
She's afraid of a wasp, will scream at a mouse,
But will tackle a stranger alone in the house.
Sour as vinegar, sweet as a rose,
She'll kiss you one minute, then turn up her nose,
She'll win you in rage, enchant you in silk,
She'll be stronger than brandy, milder than milk.
At times she'll be vengeful, merry and sad,
She'll hate you like poison, and love you like mad.

The Moods of a Man....

Hungry.
Horny.
Sleepy

How To Impress A Woman

Wine her, Dine her, Call her, Hug her, Support her, Hold her, Surprise her, Compliment her, Smile at her, Listen to her, Laugh with her, Cry with her, Romance her, Encourage her, Believe in her, Pray with her, Pray for her, Cuddle with her, Shop with her, Give her jewellery, Buy her flowers, Hold her hand, Write love letters to her, Go to the end of the Earth and back again for her.

How to impress a man:

Show up naked ... Bring chicken wings ... Don't block the TV!