just because

Yes I admit it. I am still insecure, afraid, and it is hard to trust...but no matter what, I am trying really hard...I want to make things better...maybe not as it was (I don't want that!I want better) but I will do better.

Hope that it is not from me alone...I am so scared.I ask God to bless everything and makes things better.AMEN

woman of hearts

I am a woman of hearts,
little things can tear me down.
I am a woman of hearts,
I have a moods of thousands man.
I am a woman of hearts,
I cheer all lovely arts.
I am a woman of hearts,
nothing goes my way.
I am a woman of heart,
that's way I don't update my blog regularly..LOl

Justin Bieber - That Should Be Me ft. Rascal Flatts

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy

Do you do what you did, what you did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me?
'Cause baby, I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me
That should be me

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies?
Whatcha doing to me?

You're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're trying to break my heart
It's working 'cause you know

That, that should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me
( From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/j/justin-bieber-lyrics/that-should-be-me-lyrics.html )

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that should be me

I need to know should I fight for our love or disown?
It's getting harder to shield this pain in my heart, ooh

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me, ooh

Holding your hand, that should be me
The one making you laugh, oh baby
Oh, that should be me, yeah

That should be me, giving you flowers
That should be me, talking for hours
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me

Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
Never should've let you go
That should be me

Never should've let you go
Never should've let you go
That should be me

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my little piece of mind

These few weeks was bad...major relationship problems, totally broke, and major relationship problems. Everything just went out of control and I can do nothing about it...

Loosing your truly cherished and longed one hurts to every bits...Your vain felt tight. Your hearts seems to be exploding out of the chest. You won't even felt your own body out of the total numbness. Your favorite foods are the worst thing you'll ever tested.Your brain seems so active remembering and flashing back the old good days,and a total insomniac night attacked for few weeks in row. Nothing seems fun anymore even a pocket full of money. The crying part is the worst one,you'll cry over something happy,something touching,everything seems sad and dull (I cried a lot even when i was watching so you think you can danced.)

And the worst parts of this "love turns to hate"(okay maybe not hate) stats is that when you knew it was your fault but letting the other half to suffers it for you. It was totally no surprised why some would come to suicide because of total frustration (suicide is a sin).

But sure every clouds has a silver lining. How much you lost will normally be the least of the happiness and graces you'll get...human loves with lust, with emotions, with looks or to looks. But there are always a greater power in the heaven(a place of love and peace)especially God's own son Jesus.He loves us unconditionally, despite our looks, our attitude towards Him, how long we've been letting Him out of our lives, our repeating mistakes and to our every dark sides and secret.Jesus never fails to take us back,not as an offenders but His truly loved one, and his love will never cease and fade.

The other part is about knowing how many people loves you and be there for you despite your ugly faces of crying, the curses you've to say in an uncountable time and etc.Just do not be afraid to open up to them because some might have experienced it.

If you suffers from breakup, heartbroken, know that there's someone in the higher power loves you and everything will get better.
Never lost hope for your love one and always pray for them and their loves one because an UNSELFISH love FORGIVES.
Despite whatever everyone tells you always trust your own BUT do take advices (because we are almost blind sometimes)

If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.(but do fight for them)

blahh moment

Once a month, for real, I always had this mood swings...If you're close to me then you'll get what I mean...it's not that something I am proud of or nothing that i actually detest in that...somehow during this period I came to a sense that I am discovering myself more, but in an uncontrollable ways...not by throwing tantrums I mean, but something very close from that...

Lets just get to the real point of this updates then...from the deepest darkest from any arteries it might be in my heart (I let go of the real anatomy studies long ago as you might see) I really do want to apologise for my every deeds and beings during these period of swings and for any tantrums I ever threw to anyone...especially to those I care the most...Its hard I know, but please deal and stay with me.Thank you.

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I'LL BE BACK BY EARLY MAY...