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awwhhh ;((

Long distance relationship,5983 miles apart.

teary ;(( sobss sobss...

I'm in this long distance things too and juggling between reality, hopes, trust and to struggle to preserve what you care for is insanely hard. Who says technology helps?It does not.Everything will never be enough ;except when you really meet up ;))

What do you think about changes?

Let's hear me mumble tonight because I have a very big issues with changes, but let emphasis that I am not a big fan of changes...in anything...especially when it comes to me alone.

I love thing that is well planned or rather organised (even if I'm not that organised) but I do love being organised, being put into some fixed plan (but sure I have to be informed earlier lah, I'd just told you about how I hate changes anyway kan?)
I doesn't really care about following a rule, it's a responsibility anyway; for good. Ah yes I admit that when it comes to rules which involved patient, it was the hardest.

Yeahh but well, things doesn't always go on our way as much as we want them to be... things will always CHANGE.They said rules are made to be broken anyway. Plan changes;( oh yeah it's raining we're not going to the beach.). People that we care changes;( I don't love you anymore,yes I've change). Even the mother nature itself; (enough said with the earthquakes and all sorts) and as a human not much we can do about it.But anyway, I don't want things to change. I want them to be as it was.

Back to where all these begun,I actually hated the fact that things doesn't goes according to the way I wanted them to be...It pissed me off...really

I don't want things to change. I don't want to get my plan cancel. I don't want any loves to fade. I don't want any disaster in any part of the world...

But who am I really?who I really am to detest?I'm just human. I want humane things. But Lord God always have a better plan. And maybe changes are God's good gifts ;))

My boyfriend called me last night, he told me that some of his friends doesn't even know that we are even together..hello it's almost 3 years you guys(girls)...but screw you all...I didn't even know how you look like. So why I should care..and now that they knew,much better la kan?? at least there's somebody else to help me to remind that he's aren't available ;))LOL...but but but suddenly he mentioned that they said I look more like his older sister rather then his other half..

duuii gini kah???tidak mahu

but but but that's not the point...I've been doing some thinking all night long, do I really looked that old??or should I look like this or is this the definition of young to them?


eiii it's not that I detest this kind of beauty...but it's just not me. Why should I be someone else?
I'm not going to 'badmouthing' or judged others la but I think this is what youthful look looks like to most people...

oh oh lets talk about the second picture there's no way on earth I'm going to be like her...can you imagine?hahha..so lazy to elaborate more..I have a lot in mind actually...about this topic I mean...anyway never mind, just assume that this post as some random post that shows that I'm quite pissed off. LOL

p/s: i never claimed any rights to any of these pictures...I just don't have any efforts to edit or watermarks my picture...let us just be wise and pretend that we knew the purposed of pictures in someone's else blog...peace ya'll

Jason Mraz - I Won't Give Up (Official Lyric Video)

jason mraz is back with a better one ;))inlove

2012

Oh hi this is a very pending updates.I'd promise to update earlier, but well yeah I didn't.
Okay let this entry be about my resolutions.To be honest I am not a person with new year resolutions(oh except for the weight issues part) but anyway this year I'd decided to let that go...mmm yeah I will do that. And here goes my list;

1. To be content- means to not to hope for happiness to much. I think I'd always dreams too much hope too much and wanted things to go on my way too much. I expected too much in things but nothings really goes our way in this world. It's not that I'm a perfectionist lah, but it sure makes me looked like I am so self centered and selfish much kan? so that's why. Besides, I think by settling at the "content" state will help me be more calm??uhh maybe..let's see.

2. Do some saving- ahh it's all about KACHINGGG... year of a dragon brings prosperity???really? hope so...but it's my plan to saves money this year...for anything lahh..I don't know

3. Vacation vacation vacation- I really have to go somewhere this year...I've been dreaming a lot.ahh again it's all about how much I can save, and looks like I have to be content with where my money would bring me.

4. Be productive- Urmm of course la not in the sense of making babies...not this year. I'm thinking of something else...charity?whatever..

5. Be healthy- This got some sort of connection with number 4 I think, exercise more...eat healthily yahhh and things like that.

6. ...
and these lists will continues with time ;)) see ya

2012

HAPPY NEW YEAR ;)) i will update,soon.real soon.stay tuned